life is crazy..and i wonder if it is me or everyone else? I think i know the answers but they always lead to more questions. I want to have no regrets.. and yet i make such poor decisions that i am left empty. I now choose a path most difficult but the right one? To him I turn again, to try to work through this crazy life together..he loves me still as broken and used as I am..he loves me still. So I give in and love and want to be a wife a companion a friend but...i am just a girl. A silly fickle girl...my heart equally as fickle..be true be strong heart and love..someone other than myself...can i really? I must try he deserves that from me...one last effort before I throw the towel in completely...maybe i wasn't wrong to believe in him..in us..in love? We shall see.....